Amie Jay/Columnist
I always tell my kids that sadness is so important. Without it, we wouldnB次元官网网址檛 know the true value of happiness B次元官网网址� kind of like eating ice cream for every meal. At first, it sounds like a dream, but soon youB次元官网网址檇 get used to it, maybe even sick of it, forgetting how much you used to love it, how special it was and all of a sudden itB次元官网网址檚 just another food.
Without the bad you canB次元官网网址檛 have the good.
I really try to embrace it. Navigate the highs and lows of life, not overthinking, accepting the waves as they come. Trying to enjoy the sun when I feel it and trying not to drown when it all crashes down on me.
I try, just as much as the next person, I suppose. But IB次元官网网址檝e got to tell you, I get tired.
Tired in my bones, in my spirit. The kind of tired that canB次元官网网址檛 be fixed by sleep or pills. A heaviness that radiates from my soul, feeling like a lead weight thatB次元官网网址檚 holding me down. The thought of putting on a big smile and showing up to that lunch date I made last week, answering that phone call, or even writing out that text message, it may as well be a 10K marathon.
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But right now, IB次元官网网址檓 recovering. I have retreated to a place that doesnB次元官网网址檛 need pretending or explanation and IB次元官网网址檓 hoarding my energy. IB次元官网网址檓 using every bit of peace, every tool that I have to make my way back to myself.
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Please be patient.
ItB次元官网网址檚 not you, itB次元官网网址檚 me.
Thank you for caring. Thank you for reaching out. Please donB次元官网网址檛 stop throwing the lifelines. IB次元官网网址檒l be back soon, I promise.
May is mental health awareness month. If you are fortunate enough not to experience a mental health illness, please educate yourself so you can be a support for the people in your life that might need your support. Try to remember not to take things personally, give your loved ones the benefit of the doubt and reach out. You just might be saving a life.
Mental illness is real. It is a flaw in your chemistry, not in your character. No shame.
MommyB次元官网网址檚 Inside Voice is a biweekly column by Amie Jay, a local mother of three.
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