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Waiting in the line up at the bank did not make me angry. It was the things I believed about the events, what I was saying to myself, that caused my experience. This was a breakthrough. At this point I became curious and began to look within.

What was the nature of these  thoughts, reactions and stories? What were their concerns, desires and opinions? What were they driving at?

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Secondly, as I watched, I could see that if I thought something to myself, I believed it. I rarely re-examined or questioned the truth of my thoughts.

This startled me. My thoughts and stories gave me my experience, my world and the quality of my life. Yet they remained un-investigated.

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Reality is a very pointed here-and-now thing. My stories were ideas and memories after the fact. They were not real life. This too was a welcome surprise.

I began to desire reality, to let go, to drop, into the experience of this moment here and now, as a practice.

Questioning thought

At this point in my exploration, I met the author Byron Katie through her best selling book Loving What Is. Katie designed an exciting and powerful way to examine and inquire into our thoughts and their impact on our experience of life.

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For Katie, the way to end suffering is to investigate and question our thoughts behind it. She invented a set of four simple yet profound questions to do this. Questions, which when asked and engaged in authentically, produce release and whole new perspectives. Katie promises that anyone can do this.

My work continued. Using the tools of inquiry, I saw that when I began to watch and question my stressful thoughts, there was an authentic sense of release.

By watching openly, quietly, without believing so many of my thoughts, long held stories of quarrel judgment and resistance to life disappeared. Life became lighter and simpler. I was left, simply, present.

As I learned to become still, I saw I was already was free and satisfied. The natural state in my life was free and peaceful. I simply had to surrender.

My search into happiness was bearing fruit. I was getting my hands on the magic wand. I was discovering what it takes to look after my own satisfaction and well-being.Today it has become my passion to share this work and this exploration with others.

pbeckowletstalk@shaw.ca

B次元官网网址擯aul Beckow is an individual, marriage and family therapist on the West Shore. See www.paulbeckow.com.