highly anticipated memoir B次元官网网址淭he Woman in MeB次元官网网址� will be released Tuesday, revealing the pop superstarB次元官网网址檚 personal take on events that have played out publicly in her decades as one of the most scrutinized figures in American life, along with private moments that she previously kept under wraps.

The book, which The Associated Press obtained a copy of Thursday, details her childhood and rise to stardom, along with her marriages, her and even a brief mention of a July incident where she was hit in the face by security for NBA player Victor Wembanyama.

Much of B次元官网网址淭he Woman in MeB次元官网网址� focuses on the father and sons, the husbands and boyfriends, who have dominated her life, for better and for worse. Several chapters are devoted to her relationship with Justin Timberlake, including deeply and painful breakup. In others she chronicles her custody fight with ex-husband Kevin Federline, and how it fueled what was viewed as a public meltdown.

Spears speaks much less of recent events, making no mention of her , whom she describes as holding her hand while she addressed a judge during a key hearing that freed her from court control in 2021.

In the opening dedication, she writes simply, B次元官网网址淔or my boys, who are the loves of my life.B次元官网网址�

Here are some of the details revealed in :

THE TIMBERLAKE YEARS

For a period at the turn of the millennium, Spears and Timberlake were AmericaB次元官网网址檚 it couple. As Spears writes, they were in love B次元官网网址� but purity was a facade. B次元官网网址淭here were a couple of times during our relationship when I knew Justin had cheated on me. Especially because I was so infatuated and so in love, I let it go, even though the tabloids seemed determined to rub my face in it,B次元官网网址� she writes.

Although Spears was painted in the press as the unfaithful one, she says she only stepped out on the relationship once, to kiss choreographer Wade Robson, confirming a long-speculated rumor.

She also writes of first reported in excerpts published by People earlier this week.

B次元官网网址淚B次元官网网址檓 sure people will hate me for this, but I agreed not to have the baby. Abortion was something I never could have imagined choosing for myself, but given the circumstances, that is what we did,B次元官网网址� she writes.

They decided she would not go to a doctor or hospital: B次元官网网址淚t was important that no one find out about the pregnancy or the abortion, which meant doing everything at home,B次元官网网址� she writes, adding that they didnB次元官网网址檛 tell her family.

She describes the physical pain of the medication abortion as B次元官网网址渆xcruciating.B次元官网网址�

B次元官网网址淚 kept crying and sobbing until it was all over,B次元官网网址� she writes. B次元官网网址淚t took hours, and I donB次元官网网址檛 remember how it ended, but I do, twenty years later, remember the pain of it, and the fear.B次元官网网址�

MAGICAL MUSICAL MOMENTS

The song that launched SpearsB次元官网网址� solo career, B次元官网网址淏次元官网网址�Baby One More TimeB次元官网网址� was directly inspired by Soft CellB次元官网网址檚 B次元官网网址淭ainted Love.B次元官网网址� Spears was listening to it the night before she was going in to record with famed Swedish producer Max Martin (who Spears describes simply as B次元官网网址渕agic.B次元官网网址�) She wanted to mimic the English synthpop duoB次元官网网址檚 sound, so she stayed up late, giving her voice the fried, raspy tone that would become iconic.

The concept for the music video, too, was her idea. Jive Records wanted her to B次元官网网址減lay a futuristic astronaut,B次元官网网址� she writes. B次元官网网址淚 told the executives at the label that I thought people would want to see my friends and me sitting at school, bored, and then as soon as the bell rang, boomB次元官网网址攚eB次元官网网址檇 start dancing.B次元官网网址�

HEARTBREAK

She says Timberlake broke up with her via text message while making his 2002 solo debut album, B次元官网网址淛ustified.B次元官网网址�

B次元官网网址淗e started being very standoffish with me. I think that was because heB次元官网网址檇 decided to use me as ammunition for his record, and so it made it awkward for him to be around me starting at him with all that affection and devotion,B次元官网网址� she writes.

In the period following the breakup, Spears became isolated, writing that she experienced B次元官网网址榮erious social anxiety.

She found herself living in an apartment alone in New York for a few months, rarely leaving. (One of her few visitors? Madonna, who dreamt up their 2003 kiss at the MTV B次元官网网址 Music Awards as a reclamation of personal autonomy.)

Not long after, Spears felt pressured by her father to do what would become an infamous interview with Diane Sawyer, in which the host pushed her to explain what she did to Justin Timberlake to cause him B次元官网网址渟o much pain.B次元官网网址�

B次元官网网址淚 felt like I had been exploited,B次元官网网址� she writes, B次元官网网址渟et up in front of the whole world.B次元官网网址�

Representatives for Timberlake did not respond to messages seeking comment.

MOTHERHOOD AND MENTAL HEALTH STRUGGLES

In 2004, Spears married dancer Kevin Federline and they had two sons together. After the children were born, she says she suffered from perinatal depression, displaying symptoms of sadness, anxiety and fatigue.

B次元官网网址淏eing a new mom is challenge enough without trying to do everything under a microscope,B次元官网网址� she writes. B次元官网网址淲ith Kevin away so much, no one was around to see me spiralB次元官网网址攅xcept every paparazzo in America.B次元官网网址�

The couple divorced in 2007.

A CUSTODY STANDOFF

Spears describes what she calls a B次元官网网址淪WAT teamB次元官网网址� bursting into a bathroom where she was holding 16-month-old son Jayden, instead of returning him to Federline as required. The moment in January 2008 led to her being hospitalized on a 72-hour psychiatric hold and was a major factor in the establishment of a court conservatorship that took over her life.

She said that amid a custody battle, she felt that Federline and his lawyers were keeping her kids from her for longer and longer stretches. She had already put 2-year-old Sean Preston in the car of a security guard who had come to get him when she became B次元官网网址渢errified that I wouldnB次元官网网址檛 get the kids again if I gave them back.B次元官网网址�

ThatB次元官网网址檚 when she fled to the bathroom.

B次元官网网址淚 just couldnB次元官网网址檛 let him go. I didnB次元官网网址檛 want anyone taking my baby,B次元官网网址� she writes. B次元官网网址淏efore I knew what was happening, a SWAT team in black suits burst through the bathroom door as if IB次元官网网址檇 hurt someone.B次元官网网址�

An attorney for Federline did not immediately respond to an email seeking comment.

THE SHAVED HEAD

Other moments in her slide toward the conservatorship became were anything but private, and Spears gives her take with a degree of emotion previously kept in check by those surrounding her.

She says she shaved her own head at a Los Angeles salon as an act of rebellion against the media, the paparazzi, and her family, who expected her to behave like a pretty and proper pop star even though she was B次元官网网址渙ut of my mind with griefB次元官网网址� over the custody battle.

B次元官网网址淪having my head was a way of saying to the world: FB次元官网网址�- you,B次元官网网址� she writes.B次元官网网址�

A few days later at a gas station, she attacked the car of a photographer with an umbrella.

She writes the man would not stop taunting her and asking her B次元官网网址渢erribleB次元官网网址� questions, including how it felt not seeing her kids, as he smirked, at B次元官网网址渙ne of the worst moments in my whole life.B次元官网网址� She says he was clearly trying to provoke a reaction, and to her regret she gave him one.

B次元官网网址淵ou canB次元官网网址檛 even do any damage with an umbrella,B次元官网网址� she says. B次元官网网址淚t was a desperate move by a desperate person.B次元官网网址�

HER FATHER TAKES CONTROL

When the court established the conservatorship in February of 2008, Spears said her father, with the power of law behind him, established absolute control over her life decisions and finances, at one point even telling her, B次元官网网址淚B次元官网网址檓 Britney Spears now.B次元官网网址�

Spears says he forced her to break up with the photographer she had been dating, and subjected anyone else she wanted to date to extensive background checks. She said he persistently told her she looked fat, and put the staff that surrounded her on strict instructions not to allow her any unapproved food.

But she said she felt that from the start the arrangement existed so that he could pay himself handsomely, while her allowance left her hardly able to buy dinner for her dancers.

B次元官网网址淗eB次元官网网址檚 always been all about the money,B次元官网网址� she writes.

An attorney for SpearsB次元官网网址檚 father declined comment. But James Spears has said in multiple court filings that he only ever acted in her best interest.

Maria Sherman And Andrew Dalton, The Associated Press